Starting over is not always easy, but sometimes it is necessary. I feel like since my divorce, I have been in the process of starting over financially, with relationships, mentally, emotionally, and somewhat spiritually. Although it may not seem like a bad thing, it has felt like failure. At this age, I thought I would be in a different place and it has been hard for me to wrap my mind around where I am. I am very critical of myself and have not been able to give myself a lot of grace. I have a way of understanding and showing kindness to others in a way that I do not show myself.
I think I have finally accepted where I am in life and I am learning to not look at it as a setback or a failure but more like purpose. Maybe I am exactly where I am supposed to be. Maybe I am doing exactly what I am supposed to be doing. I think I finally hit my Second Wind. The hopes, dreams, ideas I had way back are still able to be fulfilled now. Maybe I am not behind and I am actually right on time.
As a runner, when you are running a race, you reach a point of fatigue where you feel like you have nothing left and all of a sudden you hit your second wind. That second wind is like a burst of energy that seems to come out of nowhere and pushes you to complete the race.
Life can be so challenging for us and we reach this point where we feel like we have nothing left and can’t make it to the end, but there is hope. There is a Second Wind!
Sometimes we feel like it is too late, or we are too old, or things have passed us up, but I want to let you know that is not the case. There is still hope for you. No matter how old you are or where you are in life, the fact that you have breath in your lungs is enough for you to know there is still hope for you. I have wrestled with the idea of having to start over and finally, I am realizing that this is good for me. Maybe I am not actually starting over but getting an opportunity to start right.
Psalm 119:71 says, “It is good for me that I have been afflicted; that I might learn thy statutes.” I never understand why someone would find goodness in affliction, but I now understand why. I wouldn’t be where I am today without it. I wouldn’t love the way I do without it. I would not be walking in my true purpose without it. Although it has been hard, it has been so very necessary.
As you walk through your journey, know that your second wind is coming. Even if you have to start over, you will be starting right. This will not be a cycle for you. This time you will rebuild a foundation that won’t be destroyed. In every area of your life, you will see the hand of God. Restore is Yours!