In lieu of it being cuffing season, I decided to do something new for myself. I decided to stop waiting for someone to do the things that I can do for myself; so I did a “Date Night” with myself.
Just to clarify, this had nothing to do with feeling like I don’t need a man or I don’t want a man. Sometimes when us as women talk about dating ourselves there is always this undertone like only Jesus is my man and I don’t need a man doing nothing for me. That is NOT what this is about.
I decided to take myself on a date as a way of putting me first. For a long time now I have been wanting to go to Kona Grill for salmon. It is the simplest thing, but I had been waiting on someone to take me or go with me. I realized I don’t have to wait for anyone anymore. I don’t have to be on anyone else’s time table or budget. I can create my own time table and budget.
Taking myself on a date did come with its own challenges. I am really not the most social person so even the thought of me being in a social place alone kind of gave me a little anxiety. I had to take the risk and make it happen. Besides my social anxiety, I dealt with the issue of possibly cancelling on myself. There were so many other things that were vying for my attention. Then I realized if a guy asked me out, would I cancel on him if I gave him my word? No! So, I wasn’t going to cancel on myself.
At dinner the waitress took me to my seat and sat me RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE of the whole restaurant. I was so embarrassed at first because it is awkward enough to be alone, but being in the middle of everyone where they could see me, made things even worse. I felt like everyone was wondering why I was by myself. To be honest some people probably didn’t even care. I realized in that moment I worry too much about what other people think. If I am doing what is making me happy, then I shouldn’t care about what anyone has to say. If you know me, you know food REALLY makes me happy.
After dinner, I went to the movies. I got my popcorn and my drink and sat in the theater and enjoyed my movie. The movies were a little better because no one paid me any attention. I love going to the movies and I hadn’t been in a long time because I again had been waiting on someone to ask me or go with me. I got to see a movie I wanted to see and eat my popcorn in peace.
Doing this was one of the best things I could have done for me. It gave me insight to see things about me that I still need to work on, but on the flip side I gained courage to continue to do things like this for me and put me first. I want to encourage you all to do the same. Stop waiting on someone else for you to enjoy your life and live your life! Do what makes you happy and dance to the beat of your own drum.